LJ Idol: Prompt 1

[euphonious_13]

LJ Idol prompt numero uno: When you pray, move your feet

Just my first entry for LJ idol. I hate posting anything I write publicly, so I'm trying really hard to get over that.




I can do anything

You got this.

The blood pumping in my ears has drowned out the music I should hear blasting from my headphones. My breathing has become ragged and my chest feels heavy as I inhale the crisp autumn air. The air is too cool for my lungs and it stings my insides. I cringe and stumble slightly, but regain my balance two steps later. Trying to push the pain out of my mind, I listen hard for my music. The song's beat is punctuated by the pleas of my body to stop, to take a break.

Don't listen.

My music is not helping with the pain so I switch coping strategies. I think to my body. I visualize myself running effortlessly through the countryside. I'm stronger there. My muscles are defined and my legs are long and lean. I'm running towards the impossibility of fitness perfection.

Just imagine.

If I keep running, I will love myself more. I relish in the prospect of looking in the mirror and feeling a sense of accomplishment. My heart will beat strongly and for longer. Oh, how I long for that sense of worthiness. The fantasies of achieving success with my body manifests itself into my life. All of my dreams of acting and directing will come true once I love myself more. I know it will happen.

Then just keep going.

My feet are moving robotically, disconnected from the pain now. I see the path ahead of me and my finishing point is only 200 yards away. The sweat on my face is dripping into my eyes by now, but I don't care. I smile. Once again I have broken the wall with my mind, my faith. My conviction has conquered my body once again.

You did it.

I slow to a walk, placing my hands on top of my head to prevent cramps. My breathing is heavy and raspy, but it doesn't matter. I continue to walk forward knowing, or at least believing, that as long as I keep moving, I will achieve everything I want. I just have to believe that I can keep going. I have to know that I can keep moving.

Comments

[noodledays.livejournal.com]

very inspiring. I'm glad you made yourself post it for this purpose. :)

[euphonious-13.livejournal.com]

Thanks :)

[kehlen-crow.livejournal.com]

Yes, that :-)

Oh, and you can maybe look at public posting the way you look at running? It could help.

[rhetoricians.livejournal.com]

I like it a lot. I really could visualize it all.

[euphonious-13.livejournal.com]

Thank you :)

[falchiar.livejournal.com]

This is awesome bb. <3

[euphonious-13.livejournal.com]

Gracias <3

[gandolforf.livejournal.com]

This is good :D

[euphonious-13.livejournal.com]

Thank you! :D

[m-malcontent.livejournal.com]

Very evocative. You can feel the pain and the determination.

[euphonious-13.livejournal.com]

Oh I'm glad! Thank you for reading!

[zeitgeistic.livejournal.com]

I like how you segmented this; it gives it a very intense feeling. Very interesting!

[euphonious-13.livejournal.com]

I'm glad it gave off some intensity! Thank you for reading :)

[wolfden.livejournal.com]

I like this. The pushing through speaks to me.

I don't usually post publicly either. It definitely is a bit daunting.

[euphonious-13.livejournal.com]

Oh good! Thank you for giving it a read :)

I am terrified of public posting!

[sweeny-todd.livejournal.com]

I like the staccato nature of the sentences in between. It really adds to that feeling of movement.

[euphonious-13.livejournal.com]

I was hoping it would do that rather than feel awkward and out of place. Thank you for reading :)

[shadowwolf13]

Great post! I love your determination. :)

[euphonious-13.livejournal.com]

Thanks! :D

[tamaraland.livejournal.com]

good work! Keep writing!

[euphonious-13.livejournal.com]

Thank you and I will!

[cyyt.livejournal.com]

Very nice! :D

[euphonious-13.livejournal.com]

Thanks :D

[vivaciousmuse.livejournal.com]

Wow, that was great. Awesome job. :)

[euphonious-13.livejournal.com]

*.* Thank you!

[whipchick.livejournal.com]

Thanks for delurking to be here :)

[euphonious-13.livejournal.com]

Haha you're welcome! And thanks for reading ^.^

[38.livejournal.com]

This is beautiful.

[euphonious-13.livejournal.com]

Thank you :)

[barrelofrain.livejournal.com]

Nicely written.

[euphonious-13.livejournal.com]

Thank you :)

[http://users.livejournal.com/unnecessary_/]

Beautiful.

[euphonious-13.livejournal.com]

Thanks <3

[myrna-bird.livejournal.com]

Really effective structure with that inner voice cheering you on. Good job!

[euphonious-13.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you liked it! Thank you for reading!

[cacophonesque.livejournal.com]

Short and intense. Captures that feeling of running really well.

[euphonious-13.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[http://users.livejournal.com/_messy/]

I don't know if it was intended this way, but I got a real "disordered" sense from this that I really relate to.

Or it could just be me projecting, lol

Either way, I like :)

[euphonious-13.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure if I'd describe my intention as disordered, but I get where that comes from. I think I was trying to show a lot self-struggle, but I just read it again and can definitely feel the disorder in it!

Thank you for giving it a read :)

[dslartoo.livejournal.com]

As somebody who's currently trying pretty hard to recapture something like real physical fitness, I can definitely say I know where this one is coming from. Breaking through that wall is a bitch and a half, but it does feel OH so good when you manage it, doesn't it?

cheers,
Phil

[beeker121.livejournal.com]

Sometimes all you can do is get to the next tree, the next streetlight.

Nicely done.

[nodressrehersal.livejournal.com]

Well written - you convinced me that you can keep going.

[basric.livejournal.com]

Nicely written.

[copyright1983.livejournal.com]

Great rhythm to this piece. Well done!

[alycewilson.livejournal.com]

Nice use of internal dialogue.

[n3m3sis42.livejournal.com]

This piece has a beautiful flow to it. Very nicely done.

[kf4vkp.livejournal.com]

Good job! I've had that conversation....different motivating image, but been there. Need to get there again.

[fourzoas.livejournal.com]

Really nice job grounding the piece in the moment; I wasn't sure what, exactly, was going on at first, but as I read, I began to see "where we were going" and I quite enjoyed it.