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LJ Idol prompt numero uno: When you pray, move your feet

Just my first entry for LJ idol. I hate posting anything I write publicly, so I'm trying really hard to get over that.




I can do anything

You got this.

The blood pumping in my ears has drowned out the music I should hear blasting from my headphones. My breathing has become ragged and my chest feels heavy as I inhale the crisp autumn air. The air is too cool for my lungs and it stings my insides. I cringe and stumble slightly, but regain my balance two steps later. Trying to push the pain out of my mind, I listen hard for my music. The song's beat is punctuated by the pleas of my body to stop, to take a break.

Don't listen.

My music is not helping with the pain so I switch coping strategies. I think to my body. I visualize myself running effortlessly through the countryside. I'm stronger there. My muscles are defined and my legs are long and lean. I'm running towards the impossibility of fitness perfection.

Just imagine.

If I keep running, I will love myself more. I relish in the prospect of looking in the mirror and feeling a sense of accomplishment. My heart will beat strongly and for longer. Oh, how I long for that sense of worthiness. The fantasies of achieving success with my body manifests itself into my life. All of my dreams of acting and directing will come true once I love myself more. I know it will happen.

Then just keep going.

My feet are moving robotically, disconnected from the pain now. I see the path ahead of me and my finishing point is only 200 yards away. The sweat on my face is dripping into my eyes by now, but I don't care. I smile. Once again I have broken the wall with my mind, my faith. My conviction has conquered my body once again.

You did it.

I slow to a walk, placing my hands on top of my head to prevent cramps. My breathing is heavy and raspy, but it doesn't matter. I continue to walk forward knowing, or at least believing, that as long as I keep moving, I will achieve everything I want. I just have to believe that I can keep going. I have to know that I can keep moving.

Date: 2011-10-20 08:00 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] noodledays.livejournal.com
very inspiring. I'm glad you made yourself post it for this purpose. :)

Date: 2011-10-21 01:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kehlen-crow.livejournal.com
Yes, that :-)

Oh, and you can maybe look at public posting the way you look at running? It could help.

Date: 2011-10-20 08:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rhetoricians.livejournal.com
I like it a lot. I really could visualize it all.

Date: 2011-10-20 08:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] euphonious-13.livejournal.com
Thank you :)

Date: 2011-10-20 10:05 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] falchiar.livejournal.com
This is awesome bb. <3

Date: 2011-10-25 01:56 pm (UTC)

Date: 2011-10-21 01:41 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gandolforf.livejournal.com
This is good :D

Date: 2011-10-25 01:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] euphonious-13.livejournal.com
Thank you! :D

Date: 2011-10-21 02:34 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] m-malcontent.livejournal.com
Very evocative. You can feel the pain and the determination.

Date: 2011-10-25 01:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] euphonious-13.livejournal.com
Oh I'm glad! Thank you for reading!

Date: 2011-10-21 02:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] zeitgeistic.livejournal.com
I like how you segmented this; it gives it a very intense feeling. Very interesting!

Date: 2011-10-25 01:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] euphonious-13.livejournal.com
I'm glad it gave off some intensity! Thank you for reading :)

Date: 2011-10-21 02:53 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wolfden.livejournal.com
I like this. The pushing through speaks to me.

I don't usually post publicly either. It definitely is a bit daunting.

Date: 2011-10-25 01:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] euphonious-13.livejournal.com
Oh good! Thank you for giving it a read :)

I am terrified of public posting!

Date: 2011-10-21 03:53 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sweeny-todd.livejournal.com
I like the staccato nature of the sentences in between. It really adds to that feeling of movement.

Date: 2011-10-25 01:58 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] euphonious-13.livejournal.com
I was hoping it would do that rather than feel awkward and out of place. Thank you for reading :)

Date: 2011-10-21 05:32 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] shadowwolf13
Great post! I love your determination. :)

Date: 2011-10-25 01:58 pm (UTC)

Date: 2011-10-21 07:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tamaraland.livejournal.com
good work! Keep writing!

Date: 2011-10-25 01:58 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] euphonious-13.livejournal.com
Thank you and I will!

Date: 2011-10-21 08:50 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cyyt.livejournal.com
Very nice! :D

Date: 2011-10-25 01:58 pm (UTC)

Date: 2011-10-21 11:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] vivaciousmuse.livejournal.com
Wow, that was great. Awesome job. :)

Date: 2011-10-25 01:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] euphonious-13.livejournal.com
*.* Thank you!

Date: 2011-10-22 04:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] whipchick.livejournal.com
Thanks for delurking to be here :)

Date: 2011-10-25 01:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] euphonious-13.livejournal.com
Haha you're welcome! And thanks for reading ^.^

Date: 2011-10-22 06:20 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 38.livejournal.com
This is beautiful.

Date: 2011-10-25 01:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] euphonious-13.livejournal.com
Thank you :)

Date: 2011-10-23 02:36 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] barrelofrain.livejournal.com
Nicely written.

Date: 2011-10-25 01:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] euphonious-13.livejournal.com
Thank you :)

Date: 2011-10-23 10:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] myrna-bird.livejournal.com
Really effective structure with that inner voice cheering you on. Good job!

Date: 2011-10-25 01:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] euphonious-13.livejournal.com
I'm glad you liked it! Thank you for reading!

Date: 2011-10-24 11:00 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cacophonesque.livejournal.com
Short and intense. Captures that feeling of running really well.

Date: 2011-10-25 02:00 pm (UTC)

Date: 2011-10-25 09:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_messy/
I don't know if it was intended this way, but I got a real "disordered" sense from this that I really relate to.

Or it could just be me projecting, lol

Either way, I like :)

Date: 2011-10-25 02:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] euphonious-13.livejournal.com
I'm not sure if I'd describe my intention as disordered, but I get where that comes from. I think I was trying to show a lot self-struggle, but I just read it again and can definitely feel the disorder in it!

Thank you for giving it a read :)

Date: 2011-10-25 02:33 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dslartoo.livejournal.com
As somebody who's currently trying pretty hard to recapture something like real physical fitness, I can definitely say I know where this one is coming from. Breaking through that wall is a bitch and a half, but it does feel OH so good when you manage it, doesn't it?

cheers,
Phil

Date: 2011-10-25 03:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] beeker121.livejournal.com
Sometimes all you can do is get to the next tree, the next streetlight.

Nicely done.

Date: 2011-10-25 06:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nodressrehersal.livejournal.com
Well written - you convinced me that you can keep going.

Date: 2011-10-25 08:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] basric.livejournal.com
Nicely written.

Date: 2011-10-26 01:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] copyright1983.livejournal.com
Great rhythm to this piece. Well done!

Date: 2011-10-26 07:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] alycewilson.livejournal.com
Nice use of internal dialogue.

Date: 2011-10-26 11:31 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] n3m3sis42.livejournal.com
This piece has a beautiful flow to it. Very nicely done.

Date: 2011-10-27 04:53 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kf4vkp.livejournal.com
Good job! I've had that conversation....different motivating image, but been there. Need to get there again.

Date: 2011-10-27 09:47 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] fourzoas.livejournal.com
Really nice job grounding the piece in the moment; I wasn't sure what, exactly, was going on at first, but as I read, I began to see "where we were going" and I quite enjoyed it.

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